Me, Myself and I

This place needs a major resuscitation.

I have almost forgotten that this place even existed until i dropped by feimun's and saw this link on her blog list and realised i last updated 2 months ago.

Its time to remind the world that I am very much alive and kickin!

It would be almost impossible to write about everything that's happened since i last updated but you could pretty much have guessed what i'd been doing for the past 2 months from my facebook.

I have finished work a month ago and honestly, I felt working life wasnt that bad after all. (yeah u probably knew that from the pictures i posted on fb). It was better than i actually expected. The thing that sucked the most was the traffic jams. But i seriously think it would be a different story altogether when it comes to REAL work. I probably came up with this conclusion cos all i did was very pretty basic. I wasnt at the level to be accountable for anything of high importance. I basically went to work, wait for somebody to pass me something to do, follow up on a few things, find things to keep myself occupied with when i had nothing to do, wait for the jams to subside and go home, watch tv and sleep. No worries about assignments, group discussions, exams, presentations, and at the end of the month, get paid. quite fun wad, no? lol.


I have to admit, i wouldnt have enjoyed it as much if it wasnt for my whole bunch colleagues tho. I'm really thankful for such a nice bunch of colleagues and seniors who were always very willing to teach and would give a kind smile with a "thats okay" for all the mistakes i made oops! hahaha. appreciate it that they treated me really well. :)

Its back to uni for me, currently on a 2 day week and its 11 weeks and counting before calling it done! The MUFY peeps and the batch i entered into uni with have now graduated tho. Congrats!

And the latest. the latest that u probably could have got vague hints about (from fb once more).

it is still like it used to be.

found one of those old mandarin tuition books while i was decluttering my room. and saw this page.

it read, (with comments by teacher in brackets)

wo de hao peng you shi ng kar mun.
ta jin nian ba shui.
wo de hao peng you zhang de (hen) AI. (dan yang zi hen hao kan)
wo men hen yao hao ying wei (ta shi wo de) tong ban tong xue.
wo men yi chi zhuo gong ke, yi chi wan you xi.

:)

from the paragraph above, u could tell that teacher was a nice person cos she added that my hao peng you's yang zi hen hao kan and i was the evil one cos i said my hao peng you was SHORT.

i think its karma. i am now the short one for saying wo de hao peng you zhang de hen AI!

14 years later, still hao peng yous!

wee wang wang wee wang wang! may good luck and happiness come my way! cos minus the party, the first thing i did for 2010 when i came home is on happy music and mandi pomelo leaf water hahaha.

Today one of my managers asked me if i'm looking forward to 2010. Without thinking much, I said no. The thought of turning 22 is really depressing, seriously. graduating would be nice. but i doubt the after graduating part will be.

(WARNING: QUITE WORDY POST AHEAD. IF U LOVE ME ENOUGH, READ IT hhahaha)

2009 is now past tense. it pretty much turned out like what i expected to be. the most unexpected thing that ever happened in 2009 is that i put on 3.5kgs hahahah

2009 wasnt the happiest year. But i am glad i've braved through it.

Honestly, uni life didnt give me many friends. People come and go. Apart from the very few, new true friends were really hard to come by. Nothing like school life and school friends.

And when both the of the closest, which i already treat like sisters had to leave at the same time, it was really saddening.

I've gotten used to loneliness. There were times when I felt like the only soul in the world. When u wanted to go shopping but u could only go alone and walk aimlessly. When u wanted to watch a movie but ended up just downloading it or not even watching it at all. When u had food cravings and there was nobody to go for lunches with just to makan for the sake of makaning. I now spend alot less. I have to make more decisions by myself and for myself. AND, I now go to haircuts alone. Its the matter of getting used to and keeping urself occupied and the sad thoughts of being alone would just disappear.

Talking about keeping myself occupied. Internship. Since i've not posted anything much on it, this is gonna be a long one.

In a way, i am thankful for such an opportunity. Sometimes i wondered what would have happened to me by now after months of holidays by myself without having anything to do. I really wondered if i was cuckoo by now. Then again, u wouldnt know how much i worried before i even started.

I pictured my department to be really dodgy and have nothing but zombie like people. And I didnt have the best first day of work when I was like out of 60 ppl, the only intern attached to that department. And it was horror when orientation was over and the rest of the 60 ppl were picked up by their respective bosses and I waited but my boss didn’t come. Felt like poor lil ugly duckling. biri biri sesat. I thought i was seriously jinxed to be a loner for the rest of the century. And the only thing i could do was march into my department by myself like i was super gungho with full confidence but actually felt like shitting bricks when more than 20 pairs of eyes were staring at me. and to add to the horror, i didnt even have a place to sit cos they didnt expect me to come so early. i really thought i made the WRONG WRONG WRONG decision to report for work at that moment.

But after a month, I can safely say that the people are not at all like what i expected them to be. the job wasnt as bad like what i expected to be. and i really count my blessings for that. in fact, i think i would miss the people when my attachment is up.

Definitely one thing which didnt change is my lost-ness. At this very moment, I am still as lost as the person i was 4 years ago. I still dont have a clear picture of what i wanna do in the future. It just sucks to think about it.

I really hope i would see some light soon. I have no time to wait, light better shine within the first 6 months of 2010 cos i will graduate by june. TOUCHWOOD I shall, I will and I AM going to pass all and graduate! AND i need to religiously do the daily crunches and situps and some exercise which i failed to do in 2009. instead of doing at least 30 every morning and slowly add more, i do 3 and go downstairs for makan. epic fail hahaha.

just 2 "resolutions" seem easy to fulfil but easier said than done. thats always the case. But I shall be optimistic on the first day of the year for a good start.

May 2010 have lots of good things in store and be one of the bestest ever! :)

Oh, and and and, may i make it to london!

i have survived a week and a half of work.

and today i survived the worst traffic jam ever recorded in the history of mankind.

took me 2 hours from pusat bandar damansara to reach home. omgwtfbbqness.

i stoned for half an hour, sang along with the radio for half an hour, look at the surroundings for half an hour and i made friends with a lil boy for another half an hour.

yeah u didnt see it wrong. the latest thing u can do in a traffic jam is to make frens wtf i am serious! i had the boredest expression on my face ever. thinking about what is on the dinner table waiting for me. and dis lil boy in the car in front kept smiling and waving at me. i really didnt wanna bother at first but then i felt damn bad ignoring him so i jus smiled and then he got so excited he started playing hide and seek with me HAHAHHAH wtf.

(i wonder what his mom/dad must be thinking when they saw me waving from the rear view mirror)

later he waved dis really big envelope. i saw Sunway Medical Center on the envelope and i felt kind of sad. i wonder if he is actually alright. hopefully it isnt his. but since he looked really happy i am assumed it isnt lah as he continued to make monkey faces.

further ahead as the traffic started to flow sum car overtook me and he gave a sad face and waved byee byee to me. aww haha how cute!

just one of those lil things in life which makes you smile. :)

having done with packing, i should already be in bed by now.

but honestly, i still wonder if my decision to take this up was right.
i have this funny feeling rite now. seriously, not a good one. now when i recall what i was asked and what i answered during the interview i think there is sumting fishy behind all this. i feel like i'm already in deep shit even before i start.

at this very moment at the very last minute i am still thinking if i really should step into the office tomorrow. but even if i dont want to, i have already signed the offer and will still have to serve notice anyway. i know this ISNT good. i should be going to work with an optimistic mindset to a whole new start but i've been warned more than once about the so called "job safety hazards" and ever since, it has been haunting me at the back of my mind if it is really, exactly that bad.

in fact, i am already thinking of a back up plan to either request for a switch if its possible or worst case scenario, just think of a good enough reason to quit without having my image and name and resume whatsoever affected.

glamorous name, but unglamarous job. i can already feel it sucks before i even start.

pls tell me all this isnt true and keep your fingers crossed for me as i keep mine crossed too.

was checking out fb updates and saw a status about pencil leads.

it suddenly strucked my mind that my pencil was out of lead.
then i started thinking very hard when was the last time i used my pencil. i really couldnt recall. but the most possible would be during my paper 2 weeks ago.

that would mean i hadnt been writing. hadnt been thinking. hadnt packed my things since the last i came home from exam and i should start clearing up the exam mess.

i only have 5 days more to do so.

2 months ago i was almost desperate for an intern opportunity. but now the thought of having only 5 days left for the last biggest holiday of uni life and starting work next week actually scares me.

arrghh! 5 more days of holiday isnt enough!

do u want to know what oh my god / oh am gee / omg really meant?

come, let me tell u.
or, actually, u can try it out urself and i guarantee u will understand it even better.


anyway, the formula:
Firstly, force ur eyes and brain to wake up at 830 am, get washed up and head to the study table. remind urself not to regret if things didnt turn out like what u wanted. and in all horror of the worst that could happen, start reading and reading and reading until....11am.

Then, have a tart for breakfast and take a 10 minute drive to pick ur sibling back home, then continue reading from where u stopped previously. until ur stomach is making noises as loud as the neighbour's karaoke concert disaster.

Take half an hour to Gobble down some noodles and take a drink while browsing through the newspaper headlines, then, go back to ur study table and CONTINUE reading. reading. noting. reading. noting. reading. reading. reading. reading. reading. reading.

Until 430 pm, tadaa! the pens are out of ink (what a great excuse to go out) and at the same time, drop ur sibling off again. then go home, and SIT back at the study table.

and half an hour later, after a day's worth of studying and stoning at the same spot, without any music, online or tv breaks, u will truly understand what i meant by ohmygod.

i seriously feel like banging my head on the wall now. but i am afraid i might knock my whole day's study out too.



CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKENDDDDDDDDD!!!
(as though misery would be over by then. but well, at least its 2/3 done)

To the fat ones, not u lah. I am not perasan enough to self declare u miss me. But its okay, i know u still miss me anyway. =P hahaha

It was NATIONWIDE EXPRESS who missed me.

and, for not being at home, they actually said i am slowww.


Cheah Lee BAN?!?!! (read: cheah lee SLOW in hokkien)



it should be my offer letter. and so, that confirms, i really wasnt dreaming.

If u didnt know the gist of the story, one hot afternoon, while LE was drowzy and sleepy, she got a call, was interviewed over the phone, and they immediately extended their offer on the spot after i crapped my way sleepily through.

I was not given any time to think or consider as she told me she needed to know immediately. so in totaly blurness, i just gave sum sort of verbal consent that i'll take it and then i happily went to sleep.

the funny part was that i was so tired and 2 hours later, i woke up, and it really felt like a dream. i wasnt even sure if i was dreaming or it really happened HAHAHA dumbness. so to make myself believe myself, i checked my handphone call register 12327849324761 times to make sure the call was REAL.

and the downside of the story was, 2 days later, i find out that the department i am going to be placed at is horrifying and somewhat life threatening in extreme cases, I might somewhat turn crazy after 2 months of internship.

(FISHY, HUH? hmm, mayb thats why she couldnt wait to offer me and cannot even give me time to think and give a reply if i'll be accepting it?)


Plan B was to wait for the other companies that i've applied to reply, get another offer if i cant. and then, send an email to turn down the original one "because it was already a week and i didnt receive the letter confirming my offer, so i got another better one and took it".

but i dont think that will work anymore, cos its already here. i will have no "supporting" excuse to turn it down IF i do get a bettter one. even if i still turn down, i will feel damn bad for ffk-ing the kind HR woman and they would probably..blacklist me? i dont know! apa macam sekarang ni?


in the end, should i just take it. just for the name of the company so that my resume will smell much nicer.

BOOOO.

howwwwwww?

After last week's struggle, i've been pretty free dis week!!
Actually not that free, but i am refraining my self from all work dis week. in other words, living in denial.

How blissful, when u have to worry about what u're gonna do next!

Last nite, i was reading my past posts (yalah, i was too free u see =P) and i realised the pasts few was nothing happy. Its been a long time since i had sumting happy to say. ohmygodd. i felt sorry for myself for being such a sad person for a very long time already hahahah.

But its a major turnaround this week! Things havent been dis nice in a long time dat i am starting to worry dat i'll have to "payback" sumtime soon. *TOUCHWOOD* i wont have to. rite rite? (sumbody say it out loud, YES!)

And if u wondered WHY?

firstly, i'd like to say that i love fei tham su ann as much as timothy tiah loves david tao! muahahahah! cos cos cos, she won 2 ticketsss to the T Music Festival for me to watch "square big money" i.e FONG DAI TONG! WOOTS!!!! Hence i'd like to do sa's famous *shake butt* and dedicate it to her!

if u wondered what was the ticket winning fairy tale she wrote, jus check out the comments from the link and scroll for su ann!

and if u've read it and wondered if i cried enough tears to float Noah's Ark (dat Evan Almighty story is still in my head) cos of gamdongness, dont be disappointed cos the truth is I DIDNT. cos i am heartless like dat. hahaha. AS IFFF lah! everybody knows i'll live the nex 10 lives feeling guilty if i didnt appreciate it! actually i was quite expressionless and speechless in front of fei tham cos i couldnt digest it. not totally until i got hold of the tix! *jumps with excitement* hahahah.



as lucky as fei tham was to have won, i'm lucky to have fei tham as a friend! awwwww. (note to feitham: u're supposed to cry too hahahahha)

and as lucky as i was to have a fren to win tickets for me, so is feizhern lucky to have a friend like me to ask him to come along to share sharee tengok concert. *perasanness* hahaha. (note to feizhern: feitham wants a treat from u)

and then, yesterday, i got lucky again cos MONEY FELL FROM THE SKY! hahaha in ur dreams laa, it only happens in cartoons. but indirectly, it did fell from the sky! its been almost 6 months since i stopped the part time job at the medicine skool and i got a call from my "lady boss" early in the morn asking me to see her and the professor. i dreadedddd that she'd ask me to return to work during the mid sem break, but to my surprise, she gave me a bonus angpow! $$$! which meansss my ball dress would be freee! no more digging my allowance to fork out for a decent dresss! more money to save and another step closer to london (if it ever materializes)!

dont u miss the happy LE?! :D

but seriously, if u got lucky so many times in a week, wont u worry whats gonna come next? hahaha. cos i seriously am...nahhh, mayb i shudnt think too much. its probably a return for all the months of sadness! :)


finally, something to look forward to. 12 september!

and to the scottish fat ones, enjoy ur holiday in europe! remember to eat macaroons for me! the chuck bass ones! but dont blame me for the fat ok?! lol!

once again, thanks sa and also nuffnang for the tixxxx! :)

I dont know how much luck you actually need for this, really.

I've been sending intern applications, yet again and been waiting for a reply.
Just the other day i sent one in to one of the banks, and within 10 minutes, a reply came in!

Delighted. Excited. Happy. and Full of Hope, i was.

In fact, i was surprised. how can the guy on the other side review my application in just 10 minutes and decide, whether its a yes or no, jus like dat!

It felt kind of funny the moment i opened my inbox and saw "(no subject)" on the title of the email.

Without wasting any time, i quickly opened it, and JENG JENG, the contents of the email read:

"I will be out of the office starting 20th June 2009 and will not return until 1st September 2009."


A computer generated reply?!? -___-"
No word could express my chadouness.


On another note, everybody is in holiday mood! merdeka weekend, raya weekend.
(even the guy at the bank is away until after merdeka. hmm now i wonder if he's really away or that was just another way of saying "no" to me?)
Its blue skies and fluffy white clouds during the day everyday. Perfect for a beach holiday!
But all I could do is just look out at the window and spend 2 minutes admiring it.

No merdeka for me, no raya for me. All classes have to be replaced anddddd...
2 mid term exams during merdeka week, and 2 assignments to hand in during raya week.

I'd rather have no holidays mann. Maybe its a good thing cos there's more time to study.
and more time to complete assignments.

No more time to waste, picking up a cup of yogurt and back to study!
while the waiting continues. wish me luck!

Something is not right. Something is terribly wrong this week. I dont know why and i still cant figure out why.

On Monday, my elephant car kissed the ass of sum idiotic dude's car because i parked in a legal, boxed parking lot and he/she didnt. amused, i was at how some ppl could park without using their brains. or used their brains but had no consideration. or had both brains and consideration but didnt give a damn about their own car. i struggled to reverse out, repeatedly reversing and moving forward, changing angles. it was at an angle which the reverse sensor couldnt detect so it wasnt beeping and i was fully aware of that, so i kept a close eye and depended on my judgement and estimation. and jeng jeng, it still happened. missed by half an inch and lightly kena-ed the other car. poor elephant had no signs of damage, but that dude's car had two scratch lines just about an inch and a half or 2 inches long, max, at the bottom of his bumper.

Nobody was there, and there was nothing i could do. Initially, i felt sorry. but then again it was such a minute damage and i felt even sorrier for myself. I was the one in the legal parking lot. it wouldnt make any difference if i had left my number and paid him like what? 20 bucks to repair it the 2 lines? if he cared that much for his own car, he wouldnt have simply parked that way. so i dont think he will even realise it until n years later. I admit, its partly my fault, but learn a lesson to dude, park CONSIDERATELY. u're not in a complex where ppl could page you to move ur car away. meet a road bully and u'll walk to the car park happily after class to find ur car with deep big scratches, done on purpose.

the end of the car episode, i went back to uni for evening classes 6 to 8pm, yes PM aka malam and it had to POUR like cats and dogs, of all days and all times. -___-

and then, came the news about the graduation thing, that the uni has made it into 2 sessions. it just had to be implemented when i'm about to graduate. the moment i heard about it, it struck my mind that i am gonna be alone cos i am extending by a semester due to my choice of double major. sigh. how sad to be graduating alone. it just makes it half less meaningful altogether.

today and yesterday felt no better either. so moodless. and i feel the rain makes things gloomier. was listening to big tong's new album, but nah, dis time only like a few tracks off it.

i've been sitting here, trying to churn something out for the assignment due next week, but my brain refuses to work. no mood to write, or to think. been watching tv, snacking and snoozing. the rest of the time, facebooking and surfing. and repeatedly listening to Moonriver isnt helping. its making me sleepier and slower *yawns*

ahh, sumbody chase away dis bad week aura around me. i need something to get me workinggg!

remember 2 weeks ago i made dis totally pointless post entitled hahahah jus cos it was the start of the holiday and i needed to list the things i need to do.

today i have a reason for it. a reason to be happy!

results are out, and i'd like to say, a big thank u for all the motivation and goodluck messages. (the ones from L face actually comes true man. no kidding.)

i made it! and somehow a miracle happened. the mere pass i hoped for turned out as donkey woohoo!

holidays are coming to an end. to be exact, jus the weekend, and dats it. how can class start so soon! they didnt give us enough time to celebrate!!! -____-

nothing dat funny actually. couldnt think of a title to put. but since i'm...okla considered happy cos exam is over, there goes 'hahahahh'.

i hereby would like to assure u that the exams didnt make me mad. i am still the same person i was 3 weeks ago. the only difference is dat i'm now the LE without burdens (for the time being).

nvm about wat its gonna turn out like, for the moment, just be happy cos it has ended!


i'm so excited about the word HOLIDAY. have a whole lot of things lined up.

1) WATCH 痞子英雄 / black and white

2) WATCH 痞子英雄 / black and white

3) WATCH 痞子英雄 / black and white

4) WATCH 痞子英雄 / black and white

5) WATCH 痞子英雄 / black and white

hahahahaha if u thought u were seeing things or sumting, nope u didnt see wrongly and it was not an error. dats the top 5 things i need to do. really, i jus gave the 1st episode a tryy and i cant wait to finish watching it already. omggg NICEEE nice cant stop watchingg. beats tvb police dramas!

WATCH IT. dun get put off jus cos vic zhou is in it. janine zhang is in it too! like her since watching her act in The Hospital. trust me jus give it a try! OHH and *important* mark zhao = HOTNESS *fans self*


ok enough about the hotness.
- back to my sane self - bout my 1000 holiday activities.

2) (the actual no 2) go for facial! need to repair the rubbish look after all the slogging.

3) SLEEP. need to cure the ultimate panda eyebags of the century. oh and sleeping early. sleep early wake up early and webcam!

4) send my grey elephant for a service.

5) send in applications. may i get it dis time!

6) self-manicure.

7) eat durian. eat MORE durian.

8) buy shoess! seriously really got no shoes to wear. been wearing the ipanema everywhere i go - thanks for it ppl - usefulness proven.

9) plaaay piano. it has been damn sad cos it has been abandoned for the past 2 months. but sad no more i'm comingg!

10) reorganize my closet before it collapses. oh and also clear the scrapbook props up!

12) of cos, GO OUT. muahaha. but probbly try to minimize going out cos need to save monayyy.

13) clean. clean. and clean. i foresee a big mess cos they're gonna dig up the whole porch of home sweet home and replace the tiles.

14) be driver cos the mother got no car for the 2 weeks.

15) washhh. the whole pile of bagss.

16) and of coss catching up with all the dramas. the greys and gossip girls and oso the tvb ones dat i didnt finishhh yet. but for the moment its pi zi ying xiong 1st!

clearing up semester notes is not in the list yet tho. cos i'm really afraid dat i didnt pass and i need to use it again. haih but den rite TOUCHWOOD. everybody jus pray for my investment unit result k. P is enough!




looks like boring is not in the vocab for dis holiday!

for now, sleep! goodnite peeps :)

its over.

talk about 3rd year units - the toughest finance paper.
one whole week of studying. and reading and studying and reading.
open eyes, investment. close eyes, investment.


i replaced and even added for the hours i slacked. i picked up where i left out. a total of only 6 hours sleep for the past 2 days, without a drop of caffeine. amazing how stress and fear keeps u going like a machineee.


b4 i closed the books and went to bed last nite i felt i had did enough. i did all i could. i believed in myself.

this morning i woke up to a brand new day. i was optimistic about things, i was going to ace it!






but in the end, what happened?
it made no difference. i am still as stressed, as worried now. its over and i am still in fear. i will live in fear till mid july comes.


i've never felt like dis b4.

i watch tv but i am actually just staring at it. i eat my lunch but i am wondering why i didnt put dat formula down. i want to take a nap but i cant sleep. i feel like i am blind to the world. the only thing i see is the horror of dis morning's paper. the questions. the number of marks i lost. i see it EVERYWHERE in EVERYTHING i do.


omg i am going crazy. save me alreadyyyyy.

i NEED to PASS this HURDLE.

yes time is running out. but SERIOUSLY, i need a break. 5 mins a least? hmm 5 like too lil. just 10 k?

10 mins of big tong while i type this.

while i ease my backache neckache buttache.
result of sitting on the same chair in the same position and reading the same book for n hours.




i have another of dis weird thing (why do i keep revealing my weirdness here?)

isit another syndrome? i just cant absorb any facts or theory when there's sunlight. CANT.

having totally NO respect for the study timetable i drew up the other day, i slept the afternoon away cos i planned to study till the sun rise den go back to sleep.

woke up at 4pm and realised i am soooo behind time. ohmygoodness. u see. padan muka for not truthfully following the study plan.





and even more ohmygoodness-ness. i took 5 hours to understand ONE MISERABLE CHAPTER. and u havent heard the best part - i have 10 more to go. HA-HAH.



MAY GOD BLESS ME.

THIS IS THE 120TH TIME I AM DOING THIS


CHECKING THAT THE 1ST PAPER STARTS AT 130PM AND NOT 830AM.
(eventho double confirmed by rz last nite)




IS THIS A SYNDROME?
I bet it is cos i've been checking every nite b4 i sleep to make sure that i didnt see wrongly and exam is not the next day.

and i've been waking up earlier every morning like 7 to check and make sure that its not exam day and exam is not 830 am. u know just in case if i saw wrongly and exam was 830, i will still be able to make it if i wake up at 7.

even the mother has to rub it in. she wakes me up at 630 and says "EH U SURE EXAM NOT TODAY HA?" and i jump out of bed to log in to that monash page again.

Maybe they shud jus consider giving exam timetable printouts like school days and it will solve my weird syndrome ahahha.



I KNOW, I'M WEIRDDD. CANT HELP IT, JUST CANT.

BUTTTT

APPARENTLY I'M NOT THE ONI ONE COS I RECEIVED SMS AT 7AM ASKING ME JUST TO DOUBLE CHECK WHETHER EXAM IS REALLY 130.

hahahaha i am NOT alone.

andddd WISH ME LUCK!

Today, 9th June 2009, it came.

Went with the guys to send them off at the airport.



I did quite well, i didnt cry.

Smiled, Hugged, waved goodbye, and off they went.




After breakfast, I came home. I dont know why home is so quiet today. Not a sound, not even the usual noise from the backroad neighbour's kids.


I hit the books, but really, I didnt feel like studying at all.
So i took a break, on the laptop and loaded the pictures and 30 sec video from the airport.





And it happened anyway.

In the end, I still cried.





Take care my frens, see u in a years time.

one day was 48 hours.

I'll have more time to study. I'll have more time to spend together b4 they leave. I'll have more time to complete things in detail and properly. I will probably not hate investments and portfolio dis much just cos of the assignment craziness. I can complete all revision work b4 going to class. I wouldnt have forgotten how to watch tv. I wont need to force myself to sleep only 4 hours a day. I wouldnt drive like a zombie. I will have more time to spend with the parents downstairs instead of jus going down for meals and spending the rest of the day in the room. I wouldnt have neglected the piano. I can find time for a haircut to maintain my mushroomness. I can prepare the best open book exam notes in the world.

but unfortunately, 48 hours a day is one thing dat would never happen!

so i should go to sleep b4 the sun rises, bearing in mind i have to make an effort to wake up early to do sum work b4 heading to class.

another sleepless day 2moro.

i bet i will look like a piece of rubbish by 25th june. i dont wanna imagine to what extent!





goodnite.

firstly, i would like to make an important announcement.

due to disturbing visuals, u should just ignore sa's post titled "TO THE TINY ONE".

dear sa, dont be sad, its not dat ur posts are sucky. jus dat it was particularly for me and me only ok. YOU (the rest of the world who knows the existence of sa's blog) are not supposed to see it. hahahahahahhahahaaa.

ok back to the point. i am here to write about 23rd may 2009. another year older, another year wiser, i hope?

u would've thought dat all things went perfect. but hahahah i think i finally know why my eye has been twitching for the past whole week. seriously.

THE MOST UNEXPECTED THINGS HAPPENED IN THE MORNING.

firstly, my contact lenses TORE.


nvm already, and to add to the chadouness, in my attempt to iron my outfit, it got BURNT.


never in my life have i accidentally tored contacts or even burnt a piece of clothing. and it happened on the day i turned 21! how historic -___-" old ppl are clumsier isit hahaha OOPS NO INSULTS TO THE OLDER PEEPS.

i swear it has nothing to do with overexcitement but it jus happened. dunno wanna laugh or cry hahaha. but anyway i still wore it, i bet nobody saw it rite HAHA.

hmm, one interesing day to remember.

i shall not bore u with words, therefore, pics! tho u probbly seen it on fb. its good to put it here for future references.
actually rite i am not 21. cos i made 3 of the same wishes and blew 21 candles 3 times. hahahah.

cos the cafe staff used the wrong candles and gl needed to go home....

so we blew the fake candles first and den the prettier candles for round 2, in different outfits (courtesy of those who shared the present! THANGS!)


and then it was time to open the presents!


the place was so pretty (dats why we wanted to go there anyway). HOW COULD WE RESIST NOT TAKING PHOTOS.

life has been such a routine for the past 2 weeks.



today was pure hibernate mode. woke up, ran some errands like a zombie. came back home, sleep. wake up, eat den sleep. slept until the mom came knocking on the door "ean ah! EH WAT HAPPEN ARE U OK AH? WHY U KEEP SLEEPING WAN?! before lunch koon (sleep in hokkien), chiak pa liao koh zai koon"

-______-



i thought the question she asked was kinda weird tho. "why u keep sleeping wan?" wat kind of question is dat huh?

anyway so i dragged myself out of bed and i think the time i officially started my day was 4pm.



now, at 1am i'm still sleepy. but i realise i've got 1,826,439,257,534,327,534,894 things to do and i've wasted one precious day away. haih. its always like dat.

as i start planning how to finish things on time, i realise mayb i cant even afford to have 8 hours sleep for a sunday.

!!!!!


last week i pontenged monday's class and had sum time to catch up on things. i cant believe i've never pontenged any class dis semester until last monday. yes i know i am such a good student rite so its ok to do things like dis once in a while.

so, maybe i shud jus do the same the coming monday too den i have another extra day's time to do whatever i need to do nyahaha.

but then again GUILT is powerful. it is, really. its as powerful as procrastination.